Aaaahhhh the Memories...

Yesterday was awesome! We (Lucky-in-life, Upward Mobility, and Psych Ward, and I) were sitting in my dorm room just talking and some how, we started to reminisce about the joys of being a child

-like when you watched Face on Nick, Jr.
- Leon on the Puzzle Place, why give the black guy such a black-sounding name?? I loved it though!
-Alegra's Window, Gullah Gullah Island, Eureka's Castle, Barney, C-bear and Jamal, and countless others
-Geography
-Becoming the geniuses we are now, better let your (future) children read encyclopedias, then they might one day get our level...lol
-Those WONDERFUL books from childhood: Corduroy, Peter Rabbit,Where the Wild Things Are, and countless others
-My favorite books from childhood were often in Spanish, since I went to Spanish Magnets for most of my elementary education, but here's some of the English ones: Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs, Kat Kong, Dogzilla, Ralph S. Mouse: The Mouse and the Motorcycle...and especially Romona Quimby, Age 8
-Then laughing at the drama that seemed so large in high school, and now it makes you laugh because those would be great problems to have right now!
-reflecting on how it is still asking a lot to have to write a paper over a page...5 pages is still a daunting task...and I'm trying to go to law school...I need to get over this!!
-It's also so weird that after this year...I won't know anyone at my old schools...isn't that crazy?? I have known folks the graduating class of 2000...now I won't know any AT ALL...WILD!!!

(Contented sigh) to Be able to go back for just a day with this knowledge intact...how odd things would be!

Did I Miss Something...a Memo Maybe?

I just do not understand why people think it's okay to question my faith. I mean, I expect it from some people, like my married friend, my grandmother, and my uncle that is a deacon. But from my BFF? I mean, I expected that even if you didn't agree with my views, you would still respect ME enough to discuss them without making charges that I'm lukewarm in my beliefs. I mean, I try to base my beliefs off what I read in the Bible, with my own eyes. I am also an American, so I truly believe in a separation of church and state. i believe that our Constitution was meant to protect the minority from the whims of the majority. I do NOT see any issue with this. I feel that as a Christian, fighting for HUMAN RIGHTS is a major part of why I am here. I also believe that the government should not be allowing the whims of "religious" hate mongers to prevent certain groups from participating in CIVIL ceremonies. I would never try to force a church to perform a gay wedding, I would never force a racist to perform an interracial wedding, but I DO expect officials to uphold the US Constitution and allow persons to exercise their UNALIENABLE rights, despite how I, or anyone feels about it. I feel that I am following in the footsteps of Christ when I stand up for those that are abused by members of our society that happen to be in the mainstream. Jesus hung out with the hated tax collectors, and at least one unclean woman.

I do not see why there is an issue with my questioning the things that do not make sense to me. But I guess because I try to get other perspectives on my questions some folks take it as the only reason I read is so that I can have more ammo to go against the "FAITH." it's not like that, I mean I read the Bible and there are some things that are at perfect peace with my heart, and there are others that are not. I feel that since I have been created with this mind, I can question things until they are explained in a satisfactory way. I'm so over it...this whole "religion" thing...I just wanna do me...why can't other folks just let me alone??

I'm sorry to ramble, but I had to put this out here so I could see it and get my words together before I attempt to go and make nice with my BFF...

Happy Honda (or Holi-, if you aren't in the market for a car) Days!

Had a blast with the buds! Just like high-school times, we were all sober the whole time! And folks(read: Ms. (im)Perfection) think i can't have fun without alcohol! Here's hoping the New Year brings less drama, and head-/heartache!!!

Bitch, We in da Bayou!!

So I have been going through! I am in jeopardy of losing my scholarship, and having to transfer to the local university. This is disheartening because I will basically be starting over, this potential school doesn't offer a major or a minor in African American Studies...which is what I'm majoring in now. Also, I will be living at home...so there will be no more partying, no friends, and no girlfriend(since she just transferred to my current school's sister school next door). I am so hurt by this because this is the semester I worked my hardest since coming to college, and to suffer such a set-back is beyond depressing. I don't have money, and I don't know if I'll be continuing my education the way I planned...life could be so much worse, I'm sure, but it feels really shitty right about now.

On another note: My family is so FOS...So I've been spending time with my one of my BFFs...and both of them are girls. My family tries to make me feel guilty about the amount of time I spend with them. They have brought it up before...and I've spoken to Ms. (im)Perfection about it...she said that she is fine with the amount of time I spend with them...especially because I see her at school now and only see them for a week or two every few months. I have even gone so far as to make sure I am home by 10 PM every time I go out with the BFFs...this is even when Ms. (im)Perfection is at work and unavailable to hang out with me...IDK, is it excessive to spend almost all day with my female best friends when my girl is at work? I think of them as like my similarly aged siblings, and I am only interested in making things work with Ms. (im)Perfection right now...

Tagged...yet, again.

So, I guess it's about time to start blogging again...and to start off...I'll make this list that I was tagged to do by Dbaby, and TGITG. I'm guessing that I am supposed to just list some random things about myself...IDK, really, but that's what it'll be.

7. I am really good at giving advice, but I'm horrible at following my own advice...hell, I rarely follow any advice...

6. I am a little lost now that I'm not basically the smartest person I know...it's kinda scary.

5. I sometimes wonder why my friends still bother to deal with me...I've realized I'm a mean ass bastard

4. I really feel torn about how to feel about being a virgin at 20...damn-near 21...especially when I'm closest to the folks who aren't virgins in my group...I hate feeling left out of the convos

3. I really Have NO clue what I'm to do in life...I see so many paths...but no clear roads...

2. I have damned food addiction...I'm seriously thinking that I might.

1. I like drinking, but i don't wanna...I'm scared I may be a worse parent than the ones I've seen...and I feel like alcohol will be the end of my "bright future" as folks like to call it...

WHY is this my life?

I am swamped with school, I just thought of a topic for my paper that is due on thursday(after weeks spent looking through sources), I am so BROKE...but Friday is pay day. and this is the final full week fo school, so I have a couple of weeks to get my life together and eeek out an acceptable GPA!

In other HORRID news, I failed a course required for my major, I withdrew, so it's no problem of bringing down my GPA but, and here's the kicker, I have to take 15 hours each semester to keep my scholarship...I'm only taking 12 hours now...but if i had stayed in the class and failed I would've been in worse condition...so WHAT am I TO DO?? Can't really stress about it now.

Also, I think I may be in trouble as far as grades go anyway, because of my spotty attendance! I REALLY HATE GOING TO THIS TINY SCHOOL at times! why do we have to have attendance policies? if I don't feel like going to class that should be my prerogative!

but other than that, life is great! lol, I can't even take myself seriously saying this....since this is my life...and it's SCREWED up...my life is, in essence, screwed up! HELP ME!!!

And history has been made!

I, too, sing America.

I am the darker brother.
They send me to eat in the kitchen
When company comes,
But I laugh,
And eat well,
And grow strong.

Tomorrow,
I'll be at the table
When company comes.
Nobody'll dare
Say to me,
"Eat in the kitchen,"
Then.

Besides,
They'll see how beautiful I am
And be ashamed--

I, too, am America.

20 Something Bloggers, as you Requested

So 20 Something Bloggers wanted us all to do a video blog post and here is my contribution(this WILL NOT become a regular thing!!):

Whew!! Glad the wait is over!!

Y'ALL!!! I have been going through! Being broke is no joke, but it is made all the worse when you are owed money by someone who has it and refuses to give it to you! Well, that was my life dealing with this freakin' school, waiting on this refund!! It was a saga! I was promised it Thursday, then I gave them until Friday evening...and was on edge all of Saturday, and Sunday....OH, Sun-DAYEEEE...I was ready to head to the top of the parking deck and JUMP!!! I really was so over life at that point! But that has all changed, I FINALLY got my DAMN money today! and in the words of the notorious The Artist, "Imma poarty, and Imma eat!" Seriously...with Homecoming around the corner..I need Shoes, a new suit, and I have pay for tickets to all of the shit and I also have to buy plane tickets and play tickets(I'm going to see WICKED!!!)and a whole bunch of other shit...but I clearly have shit to do...so I bid you, o blogosphere, adieu!

The week from hell!!!

SO this was definitely not my week! I lost 100 dollars that I don't have and now need, I didn't even get the letter of recommendation for this organization I want to join, I didn't get a workstudy job, and to top it all off...My FUCKING Refund is still not here yet!! So what the FUCK am I to do?? I swear, things felt like they couldn't get worse, but, alas they did: my phone is technically out of service, but I can still get incoming communiques.

I am hating all of this drama! I just wanna go to class, eat some good food, watch some nice tv, and chillax on the weekends. IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?? I am so over this place...this city sucks, and my school sucks ass most of the time!

I am about ready to fire these suckas on my e-board for the Af-Am Studies Club: this Tuesday will be our fourth "FIRST" general Body meeting...WTF?? I mean I have an e-board so that everything doesn't fall on one person! I mean I made the fliers, why the fuck can't you print them and post them, without me micro-managing shit?? I mean I told the VP to call an e-board meeting, this fool completely ignored me and I had to call it...if I'm doing it all, I'll do it all and get rid of the dead weight! The Treasurer is not doing shit that I ask him to, I need to put together a damn budget so that I can go get appropriations and this fool will not go meet with our adviser to figure out the shit to put on the paper...Just go sit down and write!! and then give the shit to the VP, and please go and get a damn Treasurer's report form the damn business office...not the same one that I gave you from MAY!!!

This rant is over...I am so worn out by this shit...and I'm about over it...if too much else goes wrong...I'm gonna need to go on the watch!!

Where the Chilly Winds Don't Blow

I am so nervous, I am so scared, I am crushed, put me on the watch!! (you know damn well, which watch I'm talkin about!!) I just got the blow of my collegiate career...and it is really hurting me. I'll talk about it more in a few months, b/c there is still time to work it out! I just have to work harder, and hopefully all will be well! But it really hurts right now! But I have to go to class, so I'll sulk another time! Time to get back on the grind!!!

Title taken from: Chilly Winds Don't Blow by Nina Simone

Wonderful Weekend

This weekend was a great! I mean it is actually the first time I can remember going each day of the weekend and not getting pissed at someone! I really had fun on Friday, with Upward Mobility, The Young Lady, and another friend, Naldo. We went to dinner and it was actually quite fun! and it's always fun to hang with fellow bloggers!! I got to speak to Drangry! I miss her dearly! I also spoke to Pink Blossoms and Dria da Diva! I can't wait to be reunited with these guys!! But back to Friday, I have realized I need sleep! I stayed up until 5:30 AM talking to Upward Mobility and Naldo...about nothing important! But I have come to appreciate being able to experience that sort fo thing, I mean we have come up with plans to take over the world...not just the city, but the World Craig(OOOPS! I mean reader), and it was quite fun!

I slept most of Saturday, When i did get up finally, it was to help the Artiste move into his new Apartment. And then to dinner, and then the Footbal game, whcih I'm happy to report, we won!! And then to the Bowling Alley! i bowled like 4, maybe 5 strikes, we only got up to 8 frames...i was pretty dang excited about those strikes!! And Lucky was trying to hate on my technique...WACK!! and then we went to Malpractice's Apartment, I really like his girlfriend...she is so nice!! But I still don't like being around him, b/c it makes me feel bad about how I act towards him. But I'm gonna try something new, just try to check my self...and keep our communication to a minimum, that way i don't have to worry about talking to him crazy!

I got up this morning and went to Church...it was amazing! and I should let you know why it was such a big deal, I have been questioning whther or not my personal values are in conflict with the values of the churches I have been attending, and whether that is reflective of the kinds of issues other folk go through when trying to reconcile progressive ideals with the inherently conservative(if nto regressive) tendencies of the Christian community. but I am trying to work thorugh it...pray for me!

And this is hotness..

I usually don't like stuff like this, but this was hot!! I have to give credit where it's due, I heard this on the Black Girl in the City's page, check her out! And I do realize that I'm probably way beyond old on get this!

7 Years Later

I can remember sitting in my favorite middle school class, American History. It was fourth period and we had this HUGE tv in the classroom. I had never even heard of the World Trade Center, I did know what the Pentagon was though(My dad is an ex-sailor). I just remember hearing folks saying that we were under attack, i didn't quite realize how huge the US is at that time. SO i figured that if it happened in NYC and the DC area, we were at risk too. It didn't help that some dumbass was saying that the next targets would be the schools with the smartest students, I was at the best school in the area...so we were all trying to get home. they herded us into the cafeteria and pulled out all the kids with connections to NYC, or DC. My friend couldn't get in contact with his dad, who was scheduled to fly to NYC early that morning...so we were all scared, it turns out he didn't even leave and came up to the school to reassure my buddy...we were all relieved.

But as time went on, I felt bad for the Muslim kids in my school, b/c folks were already acting rude to them talking about how they were terrorists. These were kids that we had known for a few years and hung out with regularly(well, not me, but the other kids...I didn't hang out when i was younger). I will admit...I had never flown and was not looking forward to ever doing it, and now clearly I try to fly everywhere that more than an 8-hour drive! Funny how things change! I was almost late class trying to watch the Pentagon ceremony, that memorial is nice!!

Insanely FUNNY!!!

It's the Small Things That Make Life Great

Last night about 11:45 me, Ms. (im)Perfection, Psych Ward, and Upward Mobility decided to go to get some of the best pizza I have ever had, from this local place. I mean the pizza was great, but the convo was wonderful!! I wish I could remember what it was about, but since we talk in circles and randomly select topics, I won't even hurt my self trying. I will say that I have the best folks on earth surrounding me! We have all changed so much, and I have learned that first impressions are usually misleading. because I definitely started off hating Psych Ward and Upward Mobility, and now they are some of my favorite people on earth!

I really wish that I hadn't wasted most of yesterday, I have a ton of work to do this weekend, a ton of reading, and I still need to do some laundry. I am such a SLACKER!!!!! I guess, I'll write more when i can clear my mind and put together real sentences.

O, BTW...Malpractice's Ex-gf, is a true bitch...her status was raw on Facebook: I laughed but then I thought about the fact that it was my boy, who had done everything he could to help her in her sick, twisted, and dimented life. And this chick has the nerve to write this:(insert name) hopes it's not dysfunctional this go round lmao I finally found someone who knows what the hell he's doing :-).
THEN she wrote this: let me stop lmao.

and THEN this: deon was right, a true man (....boy, really) could not do someone as dirty as he did. I can't be mad at no one but myself abd learn.

Now she says he did her wrong...he bought her a phone, let her move in with him, and then let her stay once they broke up...and then she talks all kinds of shit this summer, and now b/c he refuses to put up with her shit and has moved to another (real) woman she is acting funny...where do these crazy folks come from??

Friends...the Best people on Earth

Tell me why Meeks randomly called me to go shopping with her to get "school supplies" from this Art supply store that has been having some good sales. And the sale was pretty good...she spent much less than she had expected. But that is not the point of this! We shop, leave and decide to stop by her house before she drops me off and heads to school. As we are sitting at this light, a car pulls up next to us and a little boy in the front seat looks over at us and laughs, so we decide (independently) to "dance" and entertain this young man...when we both started dancing it to two completely different musical tempos...it was hilarious! I wish you had been there! I swear we made that little boy's WEEK..maybe even his month....too bad you can't say things like that!

Also, I just checked in for my Flight back down to the South. I've never done online check-in, it was interesting. I also found out that I can check a box...I thought "baggage" had to be bags...maybe I'm a little slow, but this is only the 10th flight I've taken in my life...and all the other times I was allowe to check two bags, and My big bag wasn't too big to check! So there( real kindergarten, right??)!

Food,Oh How I Love Thee...and this is the whole problem

Why did I just get overly excited about the fact that I found my Favorite ice cream flavor(Butter Brickle) today? I mean, it is becoming more and more clear to me that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I sit up and think of wonderful spreads of food as entertainment, I watch(ed) the food network religiously, until the Olympics started. I talk about food almost constantly, and I am always wondering about my next meal...this is not the worst. I have turned going out to eat into a hobby...or is it an addiction? I mean this would be different if it was like alcohol or cocaine, but this is an addiction to something I can't live without. I mean When Gram wanted to quit smoking she stopped cold turkey, if I do that with food, it just opens up another flood gate. I am not ready to become anorexic, and that really wouldn't be a good look for me anyway. I have to do something, and the crazy thing is...it's so much easier when I'm at school. Probabaly b/c i rarely like anything they serve in the caf. I really need to go, and also, when I'm with Ms (im)Perfection, I tend to eat less, and to eat better things when i do eat more...I guess maybe I can only eat at school or with her forever...not so bad...I guess...but I'm gonna stop obsessing and enjoy this Butter Brickle (well, I already paid for it, why not eat it and I've already got a bowl in front of me, so just DROP it)

this video speaks to my unhealthy predicament...just think of the subject being food...it is also a shout out to Angie and Dria...enjoys homies...I will always miss our little dance hours after long days at work (sniffles)!

I swear, this is gone be the death of me!

So the Games of the 29th Olympiad are driving me up the wall already!! I mean, I am never really big on any sports except Track & Field usually...but I am living and dying with all of the American athletes...and I'm serious about dying...I almost died at like 3:00 this morning, watching that swimming relay where the French team said they were gonna smash us...I think not!!! I mean we were in first, then second, then third...and on that fourth leg...MAN, Jason Lezak tore into that French-bitch ass!!!! we snatched that shit right out they mouths!!! That's really His NAME told me about it...right as he was telling me it came on and I swear I wasn't breathing half the time! My eyes teared up from not blinking...it was crazy!!! you really have to watch this stuff(not to is just plain un-American...you can be investigated by the House of Representatives...FYI...don't go through all of that, just watch and cheer! it's the Amurkin way!!) Why did Pink Blossoms will the Black swimmer in the relay to stop breathing so much and speed up...hilarious!!!

In photo: Jason Lezak (who was the last leg and made the actual winning stroke), Cullen Jones(the second African American to have a gold medal in swimming), Garrett Weber-Gail, and (of course) Michael Phelps

So, me and Luncheon Loaf were watching the Olympic trials this summer during our internship, and we still send those random overjoyed text messages to each other. She is a gymnast so she really knows the stuff; I'm an Olympic watcher of gymnastics. And yet, i am sitting here yelping and texting her...and just having a near-nervous breakdown watching these men work their tails off on these apparati(is this a real word??)! BUT I wish these commentators would shut the fuck up writing team USA off! They are there because they can compete...if they were there to lose, they could have stayed home! So, sit back and shut that 'ole in your face (fave line from Titanic [the movie]).

I couldn't find a photo of the men's gym team...I'm still looking though!

Hi-fucking-larious!!

look at this "lost" scene from Dreamgirls....



Also, china basically shit on the whole world with that opening ceremony!!